Memories of grief

Memories of Grief

I've dealt with hard things in my life a child of divorce single parent raised lack of money going without. Single motherhood unwell hubby teenagers ..now thats not easy mental illness within family but the hardest one of all is grief especially when it's someone close to you in.my case it was my eldest child something you never want to deal with or wish on anyone ever but it's a part of life a hard heart wrenching destructive unbelievable grief it was 7 yrs ago last March. she was 28 she had 6 kids 2 older have really felt this even today their emotional mental states have been raw she overdosed the silly girl our hearts broke I was woken by heavy knocking on door at 1.30 am by police telling me she had padded away I feared door knocking for years ...now living in a bus takes that one panic away but the fear of grief is still with me. I never want to have that pain again Once I was afraid of death now I'm not it's just grief that scares me as I know how hard that is to move thru the pain is all encompassing you can't sleep you wake in shock when you do get to shut your eyes . I had no choice but to keep doing normal things I had her 6 kids to care for . to take to school to shop to just keep breathing and I sobbed while driving while waiting in the car when showering every part of my life held me in grief but one thing I could do was keep breathing ..I did it deeply often and I kept going it's all any of us can do when in that place . The aftermath wasn't easy fortunately my 2nd daughter my rock organised everything Her ashes are with me still. I hope to have jewellery made one day for her babies. I think of her with love after I got thru disappointment and anger... I'm dealing with teens I'm angry about that as teen years are not easy as you all know and even more when there is mental issues for 2 off then to deal with. And I still have those crying days. for those dealing with grief breath deeply and often cry as long and as much as you need to your grief is your own your grief time is your own. Talk about them as much as you want to get support just keep going and live life to the fullest one day someone will grieve for you but make happy memories for them to remember thru their grief

 lots of love Nelly

Amy 21 July 1984 to 4th March 2013 

Hello is anybody out there ?

8 yrs ??? Seriously that went fast !
Not sure if any one is still following this blog.
But I'm Baaack...
Wow what a roller coaster of 8 yrs it's been .
I think I left you while we were in house building process and organising getting my youngest grandson  which we did and he is 9 now 😮

And we moved into our house October 2012
And wasn't that a memory sooner forgotten
We had a wicked witch of a back neighbour. who got her jollies upsetting the neighbourhood and made life a misery.

We also sadly  lost my eldest daughter in 2013 and if you have never suffered grief like that I pray you never will .2nd grandaughter lost her dad 4 months after her mum so now we had 3 grandkids with no parents just us.
In 2015 we bought a 1988 40ft  bus and headed off around Australia.with youngest son driving behind

You can see that adventure on Facebook here  at TheBus and Us Travel Australia
We then went back to house in end of 2016 after 18months stayed there for 18months .dealt with a couple of emotionally damaged teenagers one of which  left home at 15 .
They are both doing great now and we still have 2 teens and 2 younger lads in bus... .yes back in bus house permanently tenanted

We have had quite a few adventures in last 2 yrs .

And LL well she is doing great has been around Aus a couple of times has worked in interestig jobs ..has been over to Italy and UK and NZ and bought us a brand new car since other one was a lemon. And loves her job now
One son got married and lives in Townsville  other son lives in Brisbane  doing security
Eldest grandaughter lives in Evans Head another in QLD

I did 2 refresher courses in beauty and nails 2017/18 and realised I don't want to do it for a living .

I'm still selling vintage (and collecting) tho my collection is in storage shed .
Still a mad crafter and boarder..yes even in a bus :)  have to do an occasional cull which is hard for us hoarders lol

So that was a brief rundown of life between then and now . .won't mention tje aging process and the on purpose growth of grey hair 🤣

Anyway if anyone is reading this I hope your life is good and you are staying safe and well and I hope to see you over on FB let me know if u found me via here

Till next time

Nelly xx

Back again at Last :)

Just call me slacker I know I am but here I am still breathing :)

New outfit via FB (Scuse blur camera was having a hissy)

New fur and cameo brooch via FB

and today at the oppie yes another wedding dress this one is quite plain is 70s but its white yes white velvet Brand is Terry Cooper It also has a long velvet train :)

and this cute but needs cleaning 70s swivel chair for miss 11s new retro funky room when we move :) $3 yay

and for more news .....
2 new puppies have been added to the Bramble brood.Say hello to Conan on left (mr 22 yrs olds rotty and Kovu belonging to Lovely Laura he is a lab:) Hubby near had a conniption on one and we thought his head would  spun around and exploded on 2 He just shook his head and muttered to himself HEE HEE

 Miss 11 has a plastered arm due to silly play at school yesterday not sure if broken or not till late next week,But she still made it to the school masquerade disco ball :) Albiet not in original chosen outfit.

Costumes Owl made by me and Mrs bought of rack :)

Tutu thanks to opshop all masks made by me :)

Lovely local knows I love movie star books and offered me hers yay

Plus I bought this of her too :)

and  More News  .House is being tiled painters start next week :)

Getting baby grandson in one week from today and bring him home yahoo

oh and if you cant find me here I will be at Facebook:)
I am addicted to my Facebook selling and vintage pages :)
May need an intervention :)

and thats all for now :)

Nelly xxx

and as Sarah would say Your Welcome :)

Slack blogger Cheat

Here is the 1st post I ever did I think I have improved somewhat lol

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My Love of Vintage

I really think that my love of vintage started way back when I was a little girl in the 60s, I remember my very hip mother who dressed in style with her long suede or snake skin look boots and her great 60s hairdo. Looking at old photos now, mum always made sure us girls (sis and me) always dressed quite trendy even when going to school.I have a school photo of me in my rednet stockings (I remember them as red even tho the pic is black and white) and my knee high black boots.

I also remember at school we had a dress up box as many schools did and still do and the brown netted 40/50s style concoction that many of us fought over to wear. I remember wearing it at least once,I must have been determined or fast lol.If I was to go back in time and see that dress today I would most likely think it was quite ugly but it did leave a lasting impression on my mind and the fact I still remember it as a 40/50s style dress through out all my life it must have had an impact on me.

My mum has passed on the love of all things pre-loved (thanks mum) and also of opshops (thrift shops) and jumble sales and I still remember some of the things she bought us to wear.Some of which I was embarressed about owning let alone wearing (due to the style factor,wearing 50s dresses in the 70s ? guilty lol) but I do wish I had them now for my collection and she did make some great choices as well that I did love and remember, even tho I have no photos.

Growing up in the 70s and 80s I remember so many items of fashion and as I got older I always thought the 70s style was awful and hoped it would never come back and the 80s well I am still getting over the shock of the things I wore then.

Now I am an avid collector of all styles from the 70s and 80s and even further back in time. Having a fancy dress hire (hobby) business gives me an excuse to collect them all without too many remarks from the family.

I know that I was an early lover of all these things vintage even going back to the early to late 80s I was collecting vintage clothing before it was even thought of as something worth owning.How I wish I had known what a huge thing it was going to be today.
I have had so many gorgeous items pass though my hands beaded like silk dresses from the 60s that I sold gorgeous camis from the 50s fur stoles and jackets form the 40s and so much more.I do kick myself for not keeping them but have learnt to be more discerning (have become a bit of a hoarder really) now.These days I find it hard to part with anything vinatge or retro, much to the exasperation of my kids (hubby knows its safer to say nothing)

Funnily enough I dont wear much of what I own but I do use alot of the bags and accessories I have collected over time and I plan to extend my collection.

Whenever its possible I like to obtain some history on them.Like the gorgeous hatpin/lapel clip (as seen in pic) I bought recently at an opshop, I found out one of the volunteer workers there had donated it that morning (How lucky was I) and she said it had belonged to her mother who was born in 1896 and died in 1979 her name was Sarah Goshnisk and she was of Prussion descent.She was born in a Town called Roadsvale near Ipswich Australia and tho that was all the info I got it was something.
The hat pin if that is what it actually is,is unusual and can be opened at the back maybe to be used on a jacket lapel? It has DEPOSE stamped on the back * (which could mean it was made to be exported or click on Depose and read another thought )Anyway I just love it and hope to find more unique ones like it.What do you think of it?





Happy vintage searching all and please share with me too.
and remember to keep smiling life is truly wonderful

J

Where I Went today

LL and I left The Captain and the kids at home and headed south to spend some time with my grandson and LLs nephew and thought we would do a 40 minute drive to the markets and visit this place  while there.
Can you guess where.....

Front Porch of goodies.

Inside the font door

art deco from the 20s

and some more art deco

kitchen goodies

vintage hats and dresses

 Have you guessed yet...

This will give you that answer I hope :)


Its "The Shop that Time Forgot" owned by Sue and Kitty
Sue was there and we had a lovely chat.The girls have some beautiful things in their shop and  yes I did drool:) Makes me want my own vintage shop even more.Make sure you visit  if you ever get up to Tambourine Mountain.
 I also heard another blogger visited just before I got there I am thinking maybe it was  Trudy but not sure.Shame I missed whoever it was:)

Heading back home tomorrow.
New pic of Grandson after his day with gran and aunty.

 Nelly xxx

Honey I'm home for a frock or 3 on Friday

Terrible how slack I have been with my bloggy but not a day goes by that I dont think I really need to do a post and then another and another so here I am so you know I am still breathing.
I have been soooo busy with trips to the gold coast each fortnight to see the youngest grandson (long story pm me for details)
I have found it hard lately to get going on blog,craft or even listing stuff to sell but am trying to get out of the slump and did list a heap today at FB today.

So on with the FOF show

Bought from a local lady who wore this as matron of honour in 1973 and many times thereafter

Should have put the heels on as its super long

Love the tiers and the caped sleeves

 Now for a couple new opshop

Love the pattern but needs some taking in and a different belt

Looking kinda huge 

 

 Now that is just one of the many that she had waiting for me.Many more to come.She shared this bag of vintage with me with above dress  after she showed me the rack of clothes she had waiting just for me in her inner sanctum bought in by a lady who said they were her kids from the 70s inc.this one below (meant for a young teen without a gut  I am sure lol) Many were home made with love ahhhhh,

Groovy Baby

bootilicious not

I will be wearing this one 

                                                             and also on the rack was

Absolutley gorgeous 70s lace dress for a little girl (am keeping as I am sure there will be more grandkids ones day :)

a mini Sarah (the crocheting fiend) Misfit dress (keeping this one too) with satin petticoat

 For my Miss 5

                                         
 Plus lots and lots and lots more (who wants to visit me and play dress ups No one in my family wants to(

 Gorgeous flat suitcase for $2 at a earlier opshop

 and this scrumy crinolene a few weeks back

has differnt pastel colours along each edge sooo cute

 In other news Lovely  Laura aka LL has moved back home (well in her camper as she is very independant)
  oh and this is where our house is at right now.

 I will try hard to be back very soon

Nelly xx

Movie Star Monday

 sorry I missed it last week wasnt home and life is on fast forward right now Missing you all as havnt had time to read too many blogs either.
The following pics are from same book as last M.S.M.x
How many do you recognize  anyone?

May Britt more info HERE

Married Sammy Davis Jnr

Nannette Newman More info HERE

Writer of books.

  
Tom Tryon More info HERE

Liked the lads.

 Nobu Mcarthy More info HERE

Starred with Jerry Lewis

 John Gavin More info HERE

An Irish Mexican mix

  
Mylene Demongeot More info HERE

Been in 73 Films

 
Yvette Mimieux More info HERE

Elvis thought she was hot

Juliet Prowse More info HERE

Attacked by a tiger twice, wat tha

Hope to be back next Monday

Nelly xx